Do people talk about this a lot? idk
I just feel like I kind of need to explain my point of view on social awkwardness as a self-diagnosed patient of said illness? disease? idek wtf i’m doing
Basically, I kind of see social awkwardness as a not-as-severe form of social anxiety. My point of view on social anxiety is basically you’re afraid of doing anything socially related, like talking to people, showing them stuff, etc etc.
Social awkwardness isn’t as bad, but it’s still pretty bad. I can’t talk to people I don’t know at all. I will never voluntarily start up conversation. I can’t order food or ask for paper towels, or even pay for a cup of coffee without blushing, looking down, and feeling extremely aware of my flaws or the way I must look (really awkward or if I said the wrong thing or whatever). I absolutely hateshowing people irl my writing or drawings and have them examine them in front of me. This is why I hate my SSAT writing classes so much, because the teacher reads my stories in front of me and every time I’d wish I was somewhere else.
I don’t know if social awkwardness can be diagnosed as a disease, or a mental illness, but I think it’s definitely a problem people should treat properly.
I mean, my own parents don’t take my problems seriously. They laugh or scoff or yell at me when I don’t want to interact with people to do something, and they don’t believe even for a moment when I say I have social awkwardness. I can’t look into people’s eyes when I’m talking, and all they do is criticise me for not doing something I am wired to be naturally against doing.
Just a little something that’s been in my mind about social awkwardness and the likes.